{cut me open} I'm gonna stay eighteen forever

So we can stay like this forever {sun poisoned}

To save my life tonight.
The ship of fools I'm on will sink
A Millstone around my neck
Be my breath, there's nothing I wouldn't give

my life is so disinteresting.
hm, i think i just created a word...
FUCK YES!
the voices won't shut the fuck uppppp
it makes me regret not killing myself when i had the chance
oh well, i guess i'll just do what every other teenager does...
blame their parents.
in my case that works out in my favor.

voices phrase of the day:
your mother is rolling in her grave...

i discovered a new voice this morning
that adds to a tottal of thirteen,
{ the therapist is going to hate me, not that he doesn't already }
i guess i have a version of my mothers boss in my head
always telling me how stuopid i am
and how slutty my mom is...was.
marty, that'd be his name.
i can't fucking stand him, i wish he would just leave...

my head hurts, i think i'm going through withdrawls
i can't stop fucking shaking...i hate this place
i just need some drugs, lots and lots of drugs
preferably heroine, it's been a while since i've had myself a real good buzz
so i guess i'm off to do my job, it's almost noon.
God help me make it through this shit...
peace my lovelies.